Sometimes I wonder, I wonder what the point to all my struggles are. I wonder what my life narrative will be. I wonder how my story will play out. I wonder.
I look to astrology, to my zodiac, to tarrot cards, to fortune telling. I look to a million different sources, feeling the attraction, but never having the courage to take that last step to find my answer.
I want answers. I want them so badly. I want to know what I am working for.
I fantasise about a life where I am known for my achievements. I want to write a story that inspires. I want to be known because of my work, not because of how I look or who I am connected to.
I know that life will always be full of suffering. I know that. I accept that. But if no matter how hard I push, I will never get to the top, to the place I want to be, then why do I push so hard? Why don’t I take a step back and just get by, day by day?
I want to know what my life is for.
One Step At A Time 